Kick me while I'm down...

Why don't people use their internal censors? It's common sense isn't it?

Last night, while I lay in bed the phone rang. It was a friend of mine. She has just returned from Europe so I expected a play by play of the entire trip but to my surprise she had some news to share.

"Guess what?!" she says.
"What?" I replied.
"I'm pregnant!" was her answer.
"Congratulations" I managed to say in as much excitement as I could muster.

She then continued to tell me how excited she is. How excited she was to get 2 pink lines. How I was the first to know. WHERE IS HER CENSOR????? Now, don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her but the problem is, I'm quite sure that she would have tricked her husband into unprotected sex. He is dead set against any children and they have been fighting for years over having children. She will make a good mother but what is he going to do?

To top it all off she tells me that I will have to get pregnant so we can be pregnant together. I just wanted to scream in the phone "what do you think I've been doing? Do you think I had a miscarriage on purpose?" but instead I suggested that that would be a good idea......

Jealousy is evil....

On a lighter note, AF came for a visit today! YAY! There is a green light straight ahead. I see a baby in my future.....if only we could JUST STOP TRYIN'!

Just Stop Tryin'

My least favourite saying. My least favourite phrase.

My husband and I tried to conceive for 14 months before we saw our first 2 pink lines. This very exciting day came after a much needed vacation away from reality. We had no idea that we were ovulating so instead we just focused on eachother. Believe it or not, we weren't trying! You know how hard it is for me to admit that?! I hate to say that they are right, that good things happen when you are not too focused on it. But, really, how do you stop trying when you are so excited, so desiring and so focused on becoming a mom or a dad? Just stop tryin', something I would NEVER say to a woman who has been trying to conceive for any length of time. As much as I know that it is true no person wants to hear this!

So you ask, what happened to our 2 pink lines? Unfortunately there were other plans for our little baby (aka lovingly called Cletus the Fetus). At 10 weeks we went for an ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. After weeks of severe nausea and vomitting, small weight gain and doubling hcG numbers, I was waiting for a miscarriage. It happened at 11 weeks. April 10, 2007, the hardest day of my life! Now, we wait for our little Angel to pick us a beautiful little baby that we can call ours.

In the meantime....We have to just stop tryin' and wait....

YA RIGHT!!!