M is for.....(an update!)

BABY!!!!! Yes, that's right! A BFP!!!! I couldn't be happier. I can't believe it actually happened so soon after our miscarriage. Now, I just hope, pray, wish, cross and beg that Cletus has found him/herself a healthy, happy little brother or sister.

And, the best part about it....WE WERE TRYIN'!!!!!!!!

M is for....

could it be Mom? Take a look at my chart, my temps seem to resemble an "M" (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1426fc). I know, I'm reading too much into it but I'm trying so hard to have faith. It does get tiring though. "Maybe"...that might be a better word....

Life is beautiful....

Well, not really, especially these days. I have had the worst year it seems and to top it all off I just found out I was bumped from my job. I have no job! What am I going to do? Is there anyone out there that has use for a deafblind intervenor? Will work for food!

On a lighter note, I ovulated on Sunday after some crazy bed sessions. Gotta make sure the job has been done right! I still feel optimistic that I'll be holding a precious little one in my arms in 10 months or so. I guess time will tell. For the mean time....well at least for the next week or two, we've JUST STOPPED TRYIN'!!

How far along are you?

This is a question that I've heard far too often lately. In the last 2 weeks 4 people, people that don't know me, have asked me how far along I am, when my baby is due and other lovely questions like that. I politely tell them that "No, I'm not expecting". What I really want to tell them is that "No, I have PCOS, I can't lose weight and I wish I was pregnant but that might be impossible!". I wish there was a way to cut out my middle section. My face is a little pudgy but nothing I can't live with, it's my stomach, the part above my waist. I'm carrying around an extra tire everyday. I'm not about to break down so I really don't need it. Dieting scares me, I don't know where to start. If only I could lose a little, I'm sure my chances of conceiving will be better. If only....

Sometimes it's just tough...

It's hard being positive all the time. Unfortnately today I'm not doing a very good job. I want this month to be it, the month that we get our second BFP but what if it isn't? Will I be able to cope?

A coworker is pregnant. She is due on October 22, one day after Cletus was supposed to be due. I listen to her complain about how hot she is, how sore she is, how she's having a hard time coping. I wish I could trade her, I wish I could tell her to stop complaining. I wish she knew how lucky she is. Though I'm happy for her, I wished she'd take her negativity elsewhere.

Just when you think you are doing ok someone walks by with a beautiful baby belly. I'm tired of trying, I just want to be.....PREGNANT......

One week...

That's me! I'm one week pregnant! If this is going to be the month we get pregnant and I started my LMP 7 days ago that would make me one week pregnant! I truly am going crazy and it's really not like me to think so positively but it's worth a try right?! You know what the best part is? We haven't even started trying yet! So, start crossing your fingers for me and let's see what happens! Just call me Mommy :)

This is it!

This is the month we are getting our sticky BFP!!! I just know it! We have had a rough few months and this is the month that everything is turning around for us. We are going to be happy and everything is going to fall into place. It's weird, I just have such a good feeling. Of course there is a good chance that things won't go our way but I will deal with it when it happens. This is a negativity-free zone!!!

So, if you call or email and we don't answer right away, we are "busy". We plan to get to know eachother just a little better! ;) But of course, we won't really be tryin'! Wink wink!!